sOaRinG HigH w/ the Lord: my spiritual homecoming
May 13th, 2008 by jevelyn*sigh* ngaun ko lang na-update blog ko, supposed to be march pa ito e, anyway just want to share this with you, hope you’ll enjoy reading…
i would like to share with you what i’ve just experienced last
weekend. my personal testimoy how awesome and mighty is our God. gusto
ko rin humingi ng dispensa kasi i cant put into words the exact
emotions that i’ve felt. hope that you’ll be inspired by this sharing…
it
started last friday, unang araw ng conference. excited ako ksi after
4yrs in the CFC community ngaun lang me nagkaroon ng chance na makasama
sa conference. kamuntik-muntikan pang hindi matuloy but God is so Good!
im
not familiar with the venue. nagrely ako sa mga instructions and
directions na binigay ng isang kasama kong nauna sa akin. when i
arrived at the Alpadi, i was fascinated by its natural view.
overlooking…nagtataasang mga puno…luntian…very peaceful at hindi
ko namalayang mahaba pala ung way down to the location ng conference.
from the entrance gate kasi ng Alpadi, though pwedeng lakarin, it would
take around 20mins. i really enjoyed walking down the spiral road of
the mt. then there is this significant spot where i stopped. in
amazement, i found myself talking as if the Lord is before me! i prayed
that watever He has planned for me as i joined this conference, i pray
that He will allow me to feel His presence. i pray that all these
burdens i have inside will be washed by his mighty hands. i kept on
talking to Him until i’ve reached the venue.
Friday night. this
is one of the longest praisefest i’ve ever experienced. we had workshop
that night on how to worship the Lord and for more than 4hrs, we
danced…we prayed…we sang…we cried and everyone felt the presence
of the Lord in that mountain! for years and years i’ve longed to hear
the voice of our God. its been my desire to hear if He has some message
for me to share w/ the others. and that night God gave me the most
beautiful message. at first, i was doubting - which happens nmn tlga
evrytime i asked him to deliver His message to me - i thought baka
sarili ko lang nagsasabi nun dahil sa un ang desire ko, na baka
magkamali ako ng interpretation o baka ganito or ganun and so on and so
forth. amazingly, i walked through the isle, got near to the mic, and
not knowing where in the world i got the courage to proclaim what the
Lord’s message:
God said:
cast your burdens upon me, those who are heavily-laden, come to me and I will give you rest…
when
i got back on seat, naramdaman ko ang kakaiba at sobrang sarap na
pakiramdam…i felt i was being lifted…i felt like im flying and
soaring high! then the affirmation to God’s message to me. isa sa mga
kakilala kong sister ay nagulat nang malaman niang ako ung nagsabi ng
message na yon ni Lord, i saw how her face glow with joy and surprised!
then
came saturday, we had different workshops and activities. i’ve met tita
arlene - a provincial couple coordinator in Lipa, Batangas - and we had
a dyap. we shared our stories. nakakahiya but i cried whenever we
talked. she looks liked my mama. i remembered all the things na hindi
ko nagagawang i-open sa kanya, we dont have that mother-daughter
closeness kasi, mga shortcomings ko at kung ano-ano pang mga thoughts.
then i joined the contemplative prayer not knowing kung bakit
bsta the word contemplative striked me a lot. tas un nalaman ko na lng
na its a process where you pray and talk heart-to-heart with the Lord.
amazing di ba kasi un tlga ung gusto ko, to have an intimate personal
relation with God.
mula friday hanggang sunday ay umiiyak ako sa
tuwing nagpupuri at nagdarasal kami kay God. i gathered all my strength
to call my mama, i told her that i love her so much and that i wanted
to talk to her paguwi ko. i told her that i have something to confess.
i’ve
learned a lot of things sa 3 araw na nasa bundok ako ng Antipolo.
nakapag-reflect talaga ako ng husto at ramdam na ramdam ko how good is
our God. the Lord renewed my life, He touched me from head to foot,
unworthy as i am but the Lord never abandoned me, the Lord stood beside
me every single moment of my life, and i am now free from all the pains
and burdens of the past.
part of the new things i’ve learned
in that conference are the 2 newest songs and un nga lang
refrain/chorus lang ang naaalala ko eh:
song of a servant
refrain:
and now i declare my allegiance to you, my God
my life and my will
at the feet of Your cross My Lord
chorus:
where You’ll go
i’ll go
lead the way my Lord
my God i will live and die for you - i really love this line!!!
i am a friend of God
I am a friend of God
I am a friend of God
I am a friend of God
He calls me friend
this
is the first but basically not the last conference na pupuntahan ko. i
bring back all the glory and praises to the mighty mighty name of our
Saviour Jesus Christ.
this is just the beginning…
there’s more yet to come…
more stories to share…
and more testimonies to proclaim God’s wonderful works…
i will be God’s faithful servant…His living masterpiece!
