jEvELyN

Is it hard to believe Im okay
After all, its been awhile
Since you walked away
Im way past crying
Over you finding someone else
You turned my days into nights (days into nights)
But now I see the light
And this maybe a big surprise to you

But youve made me stronger
By breaking my heart
You ended my life
And made a better one start
You taught me everything
From falling in love
To letting go of life
Yes, youve made me stronger
Baby, by saying goodbye

If you try to believe Im not over you
Go ahead
Theres nothing wrong with making believe
I know
Cuz I used to pretend youd come back to me
But time has been such a friend
Brought me to my senses again
And I have you to thanked (I have you to thanked)
For setting me free (for setting me free)

Cuz youve made me stronger
By breaking my heart
You ended my life
And made a better one start
You taught me everything
From falling in love
To letting go of a lie
Yes, youve made me stronger
Baby, by saying goodbye

Think again
Dont feel so sorry for me, my friend
Oh, dont you know
Im not the one at the loosing end (Im not the one)

Cuz youve made me stronger
By breaking my heart
You ended my life
And made a better one start
You taught me everything
From falling in love
To letting go of a lie
Yes, youve made me stronger
Baby, by saying goodbye

You ended my life
And made a better one start
You taught me everything
From falling in love
To letting go of a lie
Yes, youve made me stronger
Baby, by saying goodbye, goodbye
Youve made me stronger
Baby, by saying goodbye

there are nights when i cant help but cry
and i wonder why you have to leave me
why did it have to end so soon
when you said that you would never leave me

chorus
tell me
where did i go wrong?
what did i do to make you change your mind completely
when i thought
this love would never end
but if this love's not ours to have
i'll let it go
with your goodbye

 why did it have to end so soon
when you said that you would never leave me
tell me
where did i go wrong?
what did i do to make you change your mind completely?
when i thought
this love would never end
but if this love's not ours to have
i'll let it go
with your goodbye... 

It’s really difficult to accept the painful truth in every relationships.  Most people tend to give their best to make it work.  They strive despite the realization that it[relationships] has to be ended.  Failures to commit, being neglected and eventually rejected oftentimes lead to breakups and separations.

They say love gives us reasons to live…it conquers all…that love is blind.

You hardly knew how traumatic i am with my first breakup, and i thanked you for being there pampering and comforting me.  You’re such a good friend, you know what words to say to make me smile.

We’re good friends…but that was before.

How can i forget the most unbelievable scenario between us.  Knowing you really makes me wonder and kept me asking how.  Everything is unexpected and so magical!

I knew things would be complicated…

…that it will hurt me…

…that it will never work…

…and we’ll just end up with regrets.

You told me about your plans.  I told you about my fears.  I was frightened that our friendship might be taken for granted and it might got affected. 

I was afraid to give it a try.

"…i will help you…"

"…you know me very well, i’m different from him…"

"…trust me."

With all these assurance, i gambled once again in this game called LOVE.  Hoping that together we can make it.  Prayers and trust are my shield against uncertainty until affection blossomed in my heart.  I then realized how much you mean to me.  I affirmed that i love you.

What a fool i was!–I’m so dumbed to believe and trust you…

…such a painful realization….  I’ve NEvER noticed that it was a one-sided love affair.

Love is indeed blind!

I really don’t know what went wrong, i did everything for you but it seemed that what i’ve done is not enough to make you love me…even to make you stay.

I thought i can handle it.  But i was definitely wrong!  Knowing that you already have somebody else stab me like a thousand knives.  My senses are numb and i felt like a paralytic…my heart wept in silence…tears burst endlessly…i felt the unbearable pain that stung inside me…all these heart aches exposed the unquestionble existence of my love for you.

Despite what we’ve been through, i’m still inlove with you…truly, madly, deeply inlove with you.  I can’t help to keep away from you.  You’re someone i can’t forget even how much i’ve tried.  I barely knew that you’ve been a part of me, of my system, and being inlove with you is incurable.

***to you my beloved one…im still clueless about your feelings for me…though you haven’t told me the things that i need to know…and now that you’re with somebody else, i just want to let you know that from the time we’ve been together i have been loving you.  I don’t know what to do, i pray that things would turn back to where it should be, i do wish that forgetting you would be easy, and hoping that you’ll realize, somehow, nobody could love you the way i did! 

Thank you for all the memories that i could reminisce during my solitude and loneliness, thank you for making my life worthwhile even just for awhile, and i thanked God that he allowed us to share an affair full of twist…as i bid my last adieu…

…I love You…

…Ti Amo…

*** jEvELyN ***

03-23-06     11:08pm

KAHiT NA NAGMUKHANG TANGA
KAHiT NA SiNASAKTAN AKO
UMiiYAK AKO, DAHiL SA iYO
ETO PA RiN AKO
HALOS BALiW SA iYO

KAHiT NA NiLOLOKO MO LANG AKO
KAHiT NA TUMiNGiN KA SA iBA
MAHAL KA NG iBA
MAG BULAGBULAGAN AKO
MASAKiT MAN iTO, DiTO SA PUSO KO

*CHORUS*
DAHiL MAHAL, MAHAL NA MAHAL KiTA
HiNDi AKO MATATAKOT, MAHiHiYA
ANO MAN ANG SABiHiN NiLA
DAHiL MAHAL, MAHAL NA MAHAL KiTA
GAGAWiN KO ANG LAHAT
PANGAKO MO LANG Di MOKO iiWAN
DAHiL MAHAL, MAHAL NA MAHAL KiTA

di ko man maamin
ikaw ay mahalaga sa akin
di ko man maisip
sa pagtulog ikaw ang panaginip

malabo man ang aking pag-iisip
sana’y pakinggan mo
ang sigaw nitong damdamin

chorus:
ako’y alipin mo kahit hindi batid
aaminin ko minsan ako’y manhid
sana ay iyong naririnig
sa ‘yong yakap ako’y nasasabik

ayoko sa iba
sa yo ako ay hindi magsasawa
ano man ang yong sabihin
umasa ka ito ay diringgin

madalas man na parang
aso at pusa giliw
sa piling mo ako ay masaya

ako’y alipin mo kahit hindi batid
aaminin ko minsan ako’y manhid
sana ay iyong naririnig
sa ‘yong yakap ako’y nasasabik

pilit mang abutin ang mga tala
basta sa akin wag kang mawawala…

ako’y alipin mo kahit hindi batid
aaminin ko minsan ako’y manhid
sana ay iyong naririnig
sa ‘yong yakap ako’y nasasabik

pagkat ikaw lang ang nais makatabi
malamig man o mainit ang gabi
nais ko sanang iparating
na ikaw lamang ang aking iibigin