…Ti Amo…
It’s really difficult to accept the painful truth in every relationships. Most people tend to give their best to make it work. They strive despite the realization that it[relationships] has to be ended. Failures to commit, being neglected and eventually rejected oftentimes lead to breakups and separations.
They say love gives us reasons to live…it conquers all…that love is blind.
You hardly knew how traumatic i am with my first breakup, and i thanked you for being there pampering and comforting me. You’re such a good friend, you know what words to say to make me smile.
We’re good friends…but that was before.
How can i forget the most unbelievable scenario between us. Knowing you really makes me wonder and kept me asking how. Everything is unexpected and so magical!
I knew things would be complicated…
…that it will hurt me…
…that it will never work…
…and we’ll just end up with regrets.
You told me about your plans. I told you about my fears. I was frightened that our friendship might be taken for granted and it might got affected.
I was afraid to give it a try.
"…i will help you…"
"…you know me very well, i’m different from him…"
"…trust me."
With all these assurance, i gambled once again in this game called LOVE. Hoping that together we can make it. Prayers and trust are my shield against uncertainty until affection blossomed in my heart. I then realized how much you mean to me. I affirmed that i love you.
What a fool i was!–I’m so dumbed to believe and trust you…
…such a painful realization…. I’ve NEvER noticed that it was a one-sided love affair.
Love is indeed blind!
I really don’t know what went wrong, i did everything for you but it seemed that what i’ve done is not enough to make you love me…even to make you stay.
I thought i can handle it. But i was definitely wrong! Knowing that you already have somebody else stab me like a thousand knives. My senses are numb and i felt like a paralytic…my heart wept in silence…tears burst endlessly…i felt the unbearable pain that stung inside me…all these heart aches exposed the unquestionble existence of my love for you.
Despite what we’ve been through, i’m still inlove with you…truly, madly, deeply inlove with you. I can’t help to keep away from you. You’re someone i can’t forget even how much i’ve tried. I barely knew that you’ve been a part of me, of my system, and being inlove with you is incurable.
***to you my beloved one…im still clueless about your feelings for me…though you haven’t told me the things that i need to know…and now that you’re with somebody else, i just want to let you know that from the time we’ve been together i have been loving you. I don’t know what to do, i pray that things would turn back to where it should be, i do wish that forgetting you would be easy, and hoping that you’ll realize, somehow, nobody could love you the way i did!
Thank you for all the memories that i could reminisce during my solitude and loneliness, thank you for making my life worthwhile even just for awhile, and i thanked God that he allowed us to share an affair full of twist…as i bid my last adieu…
…I love You…
…Ti Amo…
*** jEvELyN ***
03-23-06 11:08pm
